The Last Straw

“Happily ever after” doesn’t come easily.. There are many chapters but no guarantee. Many pages have to be turned before the tale is told.
Before the prince, you have to kiss..some other frogs.

Hi,

You don’t know me but I think I could get to fall in love with you in the future.
Hope you’re the knight in shinning armour I heard about and your armour is real metal and isn’t just shiny.
I know a few things about myself now that I’m not sure will show when we meet..that’s because I’ve just been heartbroken.

Here they are:
1. I am a sucker for attractive boys
2. Not only the physical attraction, but they have to be really smart
3. Be able to command respect
4. I like the ones that show they care but pick on me slightly
5. I like funny people.
6. Show that you have prospect.
7. Respect me

Three out of seven wouldn’t be that bad.

Now these things might not be any qualities you have. But for me to fall in love with you means something else has attracted me to you.

I have been hurt six times and seeing as the number 7 is a number of perfection, I assume you hurting me would be the death of me. The hurt I feel now would require one more push for me to do something crazy.

It would damage my soul completely.

I am not perfect, I may not be over the top beautiful or the most intelligent.. My hair isn’t perfect, I don’t have an air brushed skin.
I don’t talk too much, I don’t nag but I’m quite arrogant in my own way. You will see this for yourself.

I have a problem. Once I get to know you, I may start to show my very caring side, please don’t take this for granted as the others have.
Don’t be them.
When I hurt, a little bit of me dies inside.
But SIX times? I’ve died already.

Now I have no idea if I want to love or just be loved but I don’t think both is an option anymore. Its either one or the other but the fact that you’re here, I think the latter is basically what I’m going for.

But dear love, always show me you care even when I’m cold towards you as I assume someday I would be and don’t tell me things you think I want to hear just because you want me for something, just tell me how you see it.

Seeing as I have loved and lost, I presume that I won’t show as much emotions as I did before, I think that is where the mistake was made.
I have learnt to control my emotions. I have put them all on a leash, so please don’t blame me if I don’t laugh at your jokes sometimes, or pamper you how I ought to.

Please forgive me when I start being stubborn or trying to prove I’m right even when its obvious I’m wrong.

I have been misused as a human being by many people, devalued. I have forgotten or lost my self worth to these men. I have even put all my pride aside to beg them because I could not bear losing them, yet I did. However, I blame myself, I’ve been stupid but I’m used to the hurt. Please don’t be the death of me..
I really don’t know how much more I can take.

I promise you, even if I show my love in a weird way most times, I will love and cherish you forever.

This is the shortest and the last straw I have given you. Please honey, use it wisely.

Yours sincerely.
The Bitter Woman.http://alariwo.wordpress.com/2012/01/21/alariwo-lifematicsthe-last-straw/